30 Days of Truth -Day 30 is finally here

I did it!!  I made it 30 days.  I know some days I had to catch up, but I completed it all.  Such a good feeling of accomplishment.

Day 30 → A letter to yourself, tell yourself EVERYTHING you love about yourself.


I love being a mom and wife mostly.  I love that I'm good at my job and that I'm very knowledgeable about a lot of things within it.  I love that I enjoy being outside; surfing, hiking and playing at the park with my son.  I love that I'm some-what crafty; enjoying scrap booking and card making and taking photographs.  I love all the talents God has given me.  And most of all, I love that I completed this challenge - 30 Days of Truth!!

30 Days of Truth - Day 29

Day 29 → Something you hope to change about yourself. And why.

     I want to become a stay at home mom.  I think I've mentioned this in other posts somewhere during my 30 days.  It's really a goal of mine right now.  I don't think it'll happen since we just bought our home last year, but hopefully it's in God's plan somewhere.  I just think I could a lot for my son (and hopefully future children) by staying home with him.  Sometimes it's SO hard with how mine and my husband's schedules work out.  For example, this year we both have to work Christmas.  I'm not terribly upset by it since my son will be 23 months, so I don't think he'll care at this point, but at some point he will.  It's just very hard.

30 Days of Truth - Day 28

Day 28 → What if you were pregnant or got someone pregnant, what would you do?

     I would be SO very excited!!!  We're starting to try for #2, so it would be a blessing.

30 Days of Truth - Days 25, 26 & 27

My apologies for falling behind again.  I've been taking care of my son who is sick with the stomach flu.  It has not been fun.  Good thing he's so cute; otherwise, I'd be pretty mad at him for throwing up on me yesterday!

Day 25 → The reason you believe you’re still alive today.

     It's God's plan.

Day 26 → Have you ever thought about giving up on life? If so, when and why?

     Since this is 30 days of "truth", I will be truthful.  Yes, when I was young because I was living in a household that wasn't the best.  I didn't have a plan or anything, just kinda thought if things would be better if I wasn't around.

Day 27 → What’s the best thing going for you right now?

     My family.  They're what get me through each day.  Work is very difficult right now, so being with my family on my days off is so relaxing and rewarding.  I don't know who is missing out on the park more since my son is sick, me or him.

30 Days of Truth - Day 24

Day 24 → Make a playlist to someone, and explain why you chose all the songs. (Just post the titles and artists and letter)


I'm going to dedicate this one to my husband...


1. Ocean Song by Jessica McLean - this is our wedding song, so it will always mean something to me.
2. I'll Stand by You by Carrie Underwood - this words to this song I believe reflect our relationship together prior to getting married when we stuck by each other through tough times.  And I'm sure it'll come in handy later in life when we have other tough times.
3. The Boys of Summer by the Ataris - such a good happy beat reminds me of surfing together
4.  Them Bones by Alice in Chains - our entrance song at our wedding reception - I love how excited you got when we walked in with this.


There are many others and I could probably go on and on, so I'll keep it short to these 4.

30 Days of Truth - Day 23

 

Day 23 → Something you wish you had done in your life. 

     Can I have the same answer as Day 22?  I wish I had just applied and seen if I'd be accepted.

30 Days of Truth - Day 22

Day 22 → Something you wish you hadn’t done in your life. 

     I wish I hadn't given up on my dream to go to the University of Michigan. I didn't go because of a boy; wrong decision.  I guess had I gone I probably wouldn't have met my husband and be where I'm at today, happy.  Although, if it's truly God's plan for us to be together and have the life we have today, we would have ended up together, even if I had gone to UofM.  But that's the one thing I wish I hadn't done was give up on that dream.  Even today, I still think about applying, just to see if I would be accepted.  That would be all I would need to fullfill that dream of mine.

30 Days of Truth - Day 21

 

 

Day 21 → (scenario) Your best friend is in a car accident and you two got into a fight an hour before. What do you do? 

     Not being in the situation, it's hard to give a 100% honest answer.  I'd like to believe that, no matter what, I'd be there for my best friend.  Being that we've known each other for the past 12 years, we've been through everything together and know everything about each other.  I can also say that in 12 years, we've never gotten into a fight.  And now that she lives in Texas, it's even harder to get in a fight with her. 

30 Days of Truth - day 20

Day 20 → Your views on drugs and alcohol
  I have a zero tolerence on drugs, think they're pointless.  Alcohol I'm okay with as long as people don't abuse it and are of legal drinking age.  I'd say about 90% of the calls we get at work involving any type of fight, someone involved has been drinking.  Too me, this is abusive of alcohol.  If you get to the point where you're acting like a fool, then you've had too much to drink.

30 days of truth - Days 18 & 19

Oh boy, these are getting hard...

 

Day 18 → Your views on gay marriage.

     I'm against it.  I believe that biblical marriage should be between a man and a woman and this country was founded on Christian beliefs.  Now, that being said, I'm fine if they allow for domestic partnerships.  But I also think they should allow partnerships for male/female couples that choose not to be married either, so they, too, can have benefits.  I don't believe it's fair to allow a gay couple receive benefits through domestic partnership, but not male/female couples.

 

Day 19 → What do you think of religion? Or what do you think of politics?

     I believe in God, Creator of Heaven and Earth.  You can call it a religion if you want, but I like to think of it as Faith.

30 Days of Truth - Days 14, 15, 16 & 17

Ugh, wow! My goal of staying on top of my 30 days of truth did not work out this weekend (Tues-Thurs). So, here I go again with a make-up; completing days 14, 15, 16 & 17.

Day 14 → A hero that has let you down. (letter)

    Hmmm, again with the letter thing.  I'm just going to tell a story.  I had a person I looked up to when I first started working in law enforcement.  This was back when I was very naive, which is how everyone is when they first start.  I looked up to this person, as s/he was my superior and had always taught me so many things.  Well, I knew a little about this person's family life; he was married and had at least 1 son.  Low and behold how disappointed I was when I saw him one day holding hands with another woman.  I knew this person wasn't his wife because it was another person who worked with us.  I was devastated.  I had trusted this person. 

     Well, I've gotten over it.  I've learned that almost all police officers cheat on their spouses (someday I'll write a book about my theories on why this happens).  I still consider this person a "hero" and truly wish I still worked with him.  God says we're not supposed to judge others; that's up to Him.  So I'm not going to judge why he did what he did.

Day 15 → Something or someone you couldn’t live without, because you’ve tried living without it.

     Hmmm, I can't think of anything that I've tried living without.


I guess the only thing that I can think of is my job.  That's sad to say.  


     When I was attending college, I worked at the University Police Department as a student assistant and court liaison.  I processed reports, took them down to the District Attorney's Office, I unlocked doors for professors, etc.  Well, I had to quit at one point because I needed to make more money to be able to pay for college.  So I left and got a full-time job doing technical customer service for Cidco (the original caller ID company).  Well, I missed working for the police department SO much.  I eventually left my normal full-time job and went back to temporarily being a Student Assistant while I waited for my background to be completed for a full-time 911 dispatcher position at the University Police Department.  I eventually got the full-time job, was able to finish obtaining my degree at almost next to nothing cost wise and now, 10 years later, I'm still a 911 dispatcher.

Day 16 → Someone or something you definitely could live without.


     I'm sure I could live without any one of my guilty pleasures; pizza, ice cream, scrapbooking accessories, etc.

Day 17 → A book you’ve read that changed your views on something.

     I recently read 29 Gifts: How a Month of Giving Can Change Your Life by Cami Walker.  It truly was an inspiring book.  Cami is battling MS and instead of dwelling on the pain and issues she's experiencing, she gets some advise to give 29 gifts in 29 days.  She takes charge of this challenge and truly comes out feeling better on the other side.  I'm not certain if I would be up for this challenge, but I believe I understand the overall meaning of the book.


Ok, again, I'm going to try really hard to keep on top of my postings for 30 days of Truth.  I only have 15 days left; I'm half way done!

30 Days of Truth - Days 11, 12 & 13

Gosh, I'm lagging on my 30 days of truth posts.  It's been a hard work week; working late and getting up early.  I've been exausted.  So, I'll do days 11, 12 & 13 here.

Day 11 → Something people seem to compliment you the most on
     The only thing I can think of off hand is that I get complimented on being good at my job.  It takes a special person to be able to multi-task like we do in the 911 center.  I remember learning a static once about dispatchers and officers and the percentage of people who can do our job, but I can't remember the specifics, so I can't cite it.  I'm going to have to do some research and post it later.

Day 12 → Something you never get compliments on.
     So, this makes me think I'm supposed to say something that I think I deserve to get compliments on.  That seems awfully self-centered.  I truthfully don't think I can answer this.  I can't come up with anything that I think I deserve to get complimented on. 

Day 13 → A band or artist that has gotten you through some tough days. (write a letter.)
     So, am I supposed to write a letter to the band?  Like, Dear so and so, you helped me...
Um, okay. I don't know if any particular band has gotten me through tough days, but music usually does.  And depending on the type of day I've had will depend what puts me in a better mood.  Sometimes it could be Rock, or a little R&B, or some Christian Music.  Just overall depends on what's going on in my life or honestly just what comes on the radio.

Okay, so I'm going to try and continue to keep up with my postings.  At least through my days off :o)

30 Days of Truth - Day 10

Day 10 → Someone you need to let go, or wish you didn’t know.

I can't think of anyone I wish I didn't know.  If those who have done wrong to me have a purpose in this world.  God has us know everyone and gives us different situations for a reason.  We may not understand that now, but we must put our trust in the Lord.  I'm putting my trust in Him; therefore, there's no one I wish I didn't know.  

30 Days of Truth - Day 09

Day 09 → Someone you didn’t want to let go, but just drifted.


I think I can say this about all my friends.  They've all seem to have drifted.  Every once in a while, we chat and catch up, but being that I'm the only one with a kid, it's hard to get together as often as we used to.  Plus, my best friend lives in San Antonio, Texas now and my other good friend lives in Hoboken, New Jersey.  I don't like that they've drifted, but I like that when we finally get a chance to chat or get together, it's as if we haven't been a part.  That's how I know they're my true friends.
I miss you gals and love you all very much!

30 Days of Truth - Day 08

Day 08 → Someone who made your life hell, or treated you bad


Currently, my boss makes my life hell.  I dread going to work, which is sad because I like what I do.  But it's hard when you have a boss who doesn't understand or know what to work the job she's supervising.  Makes no sense to me.  It's also hard when the boss plays favorites and is so obvious about it, people in other units see it.
That's the short version of my vent.  Trust me, I could go on and on.  Needless to say, life is currently difficult right now.  I very much wish I could be a stay at home mom.


Maybe someday...

30 Days of Truth - Day 07

Yahoo, I've gone 1 whole week!!
Day 07 → Someone who has made your life worth living

My son.  I couldn't imagine life without him.  I have so much love for him, it's amazing.  Everything about him makes me so happy.  Ok, almost everything - the temper is hard to deal with at times.  But he really is my joy.

30 Days of Truth - Day 05

Day 05 → Something you hope to do in life

Ok, so I have a lot I could say here, but I'll go with the one that has been on my mind the most lately...I hope to eventually become a stay at home mom.  I'm really struggling with this one lately; to the point where I cry at night at times.  I think I would be better with working if my schedule wasn't so all over the place and if my work didn't give me grief about having schedule difficulties with my nanny(ies).  So, hopefully someday in the near future we'll be able to afford it or I'll find another job.  Only the Lord will tell...

30 Days of Truth - Day 04

Day 04 → Something you have to forgive someone for
     I need to forgive my hubby for his consistent leaving empty boxes/containers in the pantry and/or refrigerator.
I'll forgive him, but does that mean I have to stop giving him grief about it?

30 Days of Truth - Day 03

Day 03 - Something you have to forgive yourself for.


Hmmm, don't know if there's anything I can think of.  It really shouldn't be me asking myself for forgiveness, more of asking Him for forgiveness.  And if that's what we're talking about, then there's always a list of things that I'm asking Him to forgive me for: not being patient enough, saying that curse word, etc.  I could go on and on.
God is wonderful at forgiving and even more wonderful to talk to.  Something I need to remember from time to time.
Here's a good verse I found about how God forgives us and doesn't want us to have excess baggage.  So , go on, give Him a call (figuratively speaking) and ask for that forgiveness.


Come unto me, all ye that labour and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest.  Take my yoke upon you, and learn of me; for I am meek and lowly in heart: and ye shall find rest unto your souls.  For my yoke is easy, and my burden is light.  Matthew 11:28-30

30 Days of Truth - Day 02

Day 02 → Something you love about yourself.


My family.  I have the greatest family I could have ever dreamed about.  My son, who is currently 21 months old, is the sweetest guy I know.  He's smart, funny and adorable.  My husband is my best friend, I've known him for 7 years now.  We became best friends before dating, which we'll tell anybody, was the best thing ever.  God brought us together and had such a wonderful plan for doing it.  His plan now is turning out to be pretty darn good too!  I can't forget my kitties, they're my family too.  There's Tux, she's 14 years old.  I've had her since she was a kitten and she's my baby girl.  And there's Hurley, adopted by my husband when Hurley was about 1 year old; he's now 6.  He can be quite a handful, but he's also so sweet.

Hubby & my son - what I love about me